The road to paradise goes through hell

I Quit,
and hence I do not fit
Its not fuel[1] in my veins,
the pain is when these eyes rains
What I seek lies inside me,
let the curtains drop,
and we can see
With every step I take backward,
I move a little forward
I rush to the origin,
to reach till the end
Your guns are my strength,
and my fear is my friend
The rings[2] do not power me,
and the chains[3] do not guard me
I ride the wings of my dreams,
and I dream to crush them all
I quit the road,
and then I fell
but my friend,
The road to paradise goes through hell.

Requiem of your dreams

Enjoy the every bit of Pain …
as this is all you have been spared of..
Your life has been sucked..
and all u are left with, is this burden to carry on..
until death sets you free …

Celebrate the requiem of your dreams..
and wait for what destiny stores for you..
as there is no worse suffering, than what u feel now..
and there lies a beautiful tomorrow ahead..

Oh Lord … Set me Free..

I stand in the aisles of dream world,
am afraid to walk down the road..
aware of what lies ahead..
and hesitant to relinquish my past..
engulfed by this illusion..
I fear my failure..
the illusion of this materialistic world,
Kingdoms, Treasure, Esteem, Love..
I lure for nothing..
All I desire for is Nirvana…

O almighty, the creator of all,
I consign my soul to you..
Oh supreme, extricate me from these worldly pains,
Oh Lord … Set me Free..

I Wish..

I stand alone, looking at the sky..
questions haunt me, don’t know the reason why??
searching for a space where I could lie..
I wish.. I could cry..

I run, your shadow chases me..
I turn around, but I cant see..
Your breath is gripping me..
I wish.. I could fly..

I look in her eyes, and they tell me..
that its not love they have for me..
her smile kills me, when I ask her the reason for lies,
and now I wish.. I could die..

Hatred is all I want for myself…

Hatred is all I want for myself…
I have been broken once before,
Left alone to cry in my caves,
Dont want to be abandoned once again
Philophobic that I am..Frustrated that I am..
Cursing my fate, Crying once again..
Dont want to be hurt again…
Death is all I desire for myself..
Hatred is all I want for myself..

Happy I am than ever before..
No one is around me to hurt me any more..
But I wonder why you still wander in my dreams..
Somniphobic that I have become..
Dont want to close my eyes once again…
I need a shoulder to cry again..
but afraid I am.. of being betrayed once again..
So love is not what I desire for myself…
Hatred is all I want for myself…

शायारी

वो कहते हैं…
वक्त बहुत कम है मेरे पास.. दो पल साथ बिता लीजिये..
क्यों चाहते हो मुझको इतना.. बस इतना बता दीजिये..

मैने कहा..
तारीफ तेरी जो करना चाहूँ.. तो सारी उमर भी कम है..
जरा फुरसत से आखों मे तो बसा लेने दो.. वक्त मेरे पास भी थोडा कम है..

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