Hatred is all I want for myself…

Hatred is all I want for myself…
I have been broken once before,
Left alone to cry in my caves,
Dont want to be abandoned once again
Philophobic that I am..Frustrated that I am..
Cursing my fate, Crying once again..
Dont want to be hurt again…
Death is all I desire for myself..
Hatred is all I want for myself..

Happy I am than ever before..
No one is around me to hurt me any more..
But I wonder why you still wander in my dreams..
Somniphobic that I have become..
Dont want to close my eyes once again…
I need a shoulder to cry again..
but afraid I am.. of being betrayed once again..
So love is not what I desire for myself…
Hatred is all I want for myself…